I don’t know what I did to deserve this headache. It’s not like I had anything to drink last night. It hurt bad enough to wake me up this morning. Now I’m laying on the couch, wondering why I feel so compelled to turn on the computer every Saturday when there’s no work to be done. It’s a compulsion, like I have staked my life on the Internet.
Every Saturday, I wake up and head for the laptop, hoping something will save me from that empty feeling that tells me I have no life. I miss feeling special in the world. That’s partly why I stick the computer so often. I feel like I have more significance online than off. Sure, I make an impact on my family, but society at large is not affected by my presence.
I wonder what would happen if I disappeared. Would anybody miss me besides my wife? Even if they couldn’t place the feeling exactly, would anyone feel a vague loss or emptiness?
Then I wonder if anyone would care if I joined the KISS FM Kidd Kraddick in the Morning Show. Would anyone like me as a radio personality? Would they think I was a downer and a bit killer? Or could I make it as well as JC and Taylor and be accepted as the newbie?
My headache is going away. I’m drinking water and hoping to hydrate myself back to health.
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Headaches are the strangest things! Sometime they can go as fast as they appear.
June 23rd, 2007Hope that it is gone from you.
I too often wonder about ‘if anyone would miss me’?
Deborah
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